I realize I haven't updated in a long while and I just wanted to apologize for that.

I have been busy with school, and I'm at the point where I really need to break away, but can't. Today I feel horrible, maybe sick, maybe tired, maybe stressed, maybe all three. I also have to teach a class today, so maybe I'm worried about that. I dunno. I know I don't have many loyal minions here, but I might as well try to get some of this stuff off my mind.

Well, lets see. To begin with, this semester of college is crappy. I got stuck with 3 classes which I do not have any interest in nor do I enjoy them in the least. I have 1 teacher that I absolutely... I dunno, but hate isn't strong enough of a word. Maybe abhor would suit it better. I really need to start working on essays.. but I have a lot of them. Its not that I'm lazy, its just that... I feel overworked? I really dunno.

On top of all this, I started to talk to someone again, and I'm all jumbled up about that. There are quite a few things going on and I just feel... small. Overwhelmed.. crappy. Pissy... annoyed... hateful..

I feel a lot of stuff and its starting to bug me.

I really dunno about all this anymore. Maybe I would be better off getting a job that requires physical labor.

Anyways, I have quite a few drawings in my 2nd year sketchbook that I never posted, so I guess I'm going to start posting them.

I have a total of 3 drawings in my 3rd year sketchbook... but I dunno. *sighs*

I really wish I had more encouragement here and there, I know I get a bit from some people, but it seems to come less frequent and less when I need it. I'm also somewhat annoyed with... here. I want critiques on my stuff, but barely anyone does. Again.. maybe I'm just bitching and moaning, but I dunno.

Finally.. well whats left to say? Quite a bit, but I don't feel like it. My drawing and writing has tinkled down to almost nil. I wish I could draw. I really do, I want to practice, but at the same time.. I'm tired of it. *grumbles* Maybe I'll figure it out.. maybe I won't.

Also. I am not trying to be "emo." I'm just relating thoughts. So, yeah whatever. -.-;
I need to fight something, someone. Sparring would be something new.. and I'm sure I'd be better off. *grumbles at IRL friends* Stupid noobs... thinking I'm squishy.